Give Up The Ghost

Today I decided to be done chasing a delusion and a playing a game with no finish or victory. It's easy to fall into such traps because they end with you alone and miserable; this feeds a martyr complex that I can't stand but am guilty of taking on in affairs of the heart.

It's a safe feeling, the isolation. Somehow as boastful as I can become, I manage to strike down things I truly deserve such as happiness.

My fulfilled ego is bigger and healthier than its ever been. My Id is in check and super ego on the level. I petitioned and the Universe provided in spades. Now it's time to cash the check.

I am the real. The real is that which I will strive to endeavor