As the Warrior Dash approached my depression grew; I wanted to run it with my nephew and that was no longer possible. The negative mindset manifested this week and I slipped in the locker room after a pool session and smacked my knee, which wrenched under me, into the tile. With a knot the size of a goose egg and no medical insurance, there was no way in hell I was going to attempt to run it.
Every mile I didn't run this summer was too easily soothed by junk food -- specifically cupcakes. The positive reinforcement wheel was busted. Grief followed by binges of junk led to physically feeling like hell again. This just kept on cycling until I finally started to feel like I wanted to physically feel healthy again. Which I do. A solid 14lbs were put back on since April and I'm a bit pissed at myself. Mad enough to do something about it.
We're slowly starting to have more good days than bad; I broke down and cleaned my kitchen first and finally started using it again. As simple as my culinary skills may be, I find it cathartic to prep more than baggies of protein powder. Clean up still sucks but I'm developing a habit of washing dishes and utensils immediately. Mr. Mess oddly finds his shiny and clean stainless steel sink pleasing.
This is a good sign. For months there were things you ought not have to witness going on in that sink. I spotted a miniature Sleestak colony forming in there and fled for higher ground.
Organization has always been an area in my life that needs improvement so I enlisted a friend to help. I will tell you that if you suck at something, seek out someone who doesn't suck at that something and get help. Knowing your strengths and outsourcing your weaknesses is good for this business of life.
The large closet is now dubbed the Little Room studio/office/treasure room. Desk, most comics and collectibles, and office crap is almost all in. This is the first blog transmitting from the new room, it's quite cozy in here! Now I gotta shuffle the other stuff where? Ah, apartment life!
After a year and a half I'm finally unpacking from the debacle in Louisville which included a move home to deal with Pop's coma and subsequent passing.
Most of my life I've felt like a leaf being spun about in the wind but I think I'll settle a spell here by the water and make this place a home...for now. Wedding contracts for summer 2014 are already starting to roll in :) And my site should launch hopefully before my birthday.
I'll be writing soon about a friend who has done AMAZING since our first reality show casting call so stay tuned.
Until next time- keep moving ever forward, one step beyond!
JW
