Is it the emotional? Somewhat. At the core there are a LOT of emotions that surface as you change. As you transform its important to transform how and why you deal with them the way you do.
Behind those physical and emotional growing pains are the mental aspects of changing. These I'm finding are the toughest.
Why? Because on the physical end I've been beaten, bruised, sore, and exhausted before and I know I eventually recover and become stronger.
The same can be said about the emotional state with the caveat that I, at times, wall myself in when wounded. If I make an effort I do so with everything behind it. In love, it has never played out without a bitter end but I still maintain that I'd rather give it everything than regret telling myself that I should've done or said more. I know, I'm a fool.
Mentally I get preoccupied with those past emotional wounds and it at times it impedes my drive.
Today I found the anger again and let it push me. These are the happy moments, true believers. 50 minutes of running and Muay Thai knee lifts through 4 feet of water. Core engaged and exhaling on the knee lift. I am fire.
In other news I bought a new jacket and new pair of jeans to fill the gap of sizes my wardrobe is missing back on the way down. Jacket replaces the one I bought in fall which is getting too big. It's snug but won't be for long. Take the small victories angrily and seize the big victories with a vengeance. My 4th cousin Elvis had a 68' comeback special, now I want mine.
